lol weird. Damn scary carnivals!
I don’t remember anything from last night’s dreams, though I did have a weird experience during meditation. While Carrie was finishing up Harry Potter, I decided to meditate and challenge myself to avoid any verbalization during the meditation. It’s not easy by the way, but it’s part of week 3 so I’m practicing now. Anyway, I had been focusing on my breath for a while when I tried visualizing white energy coming in, and exhaling negative energy. At some point, I stopped. I jumped out of bed like I needed to do something or find something. But I didn’t know what that thing was. I looked at my bookshelf, nothing jumped out at me. I went to the computer, but had nothing. It was a true mystery, and one I still have no insight about. Of course I was then wide awake again. So I read Carrie the last 2 chapters of Harry Potter. Unfortunately, that meant I couldn’t get to sleep finally until around 3am. So, once again I’m running on all of maybe 4 hours of sleep. Insomnia is not fun! It makes it very hard to remember dreams.
Oh, as a side note, while trying to just focus on my breathing, I noticed that there were thoughts, but they stayed just below consciousness, so I didn’t actually ‘hear’ the thoughts. It reminded me of when I hear other voices but can’t comprehend them. It’s a weird feeling, especially when you want to know but need to focus elsewhere.