An example of facing a ‘shadow’, from my own life. This is an excerpt from my blog.
I get upset when I drive and other people drive in an irresponsible manner. Why can’t I just relax? My reaction tells me one area where I’m not living my spirituality. If I were living my spirituality, why would I get mad at an accident that didn’t happen? After all, if my soul doesn’t want me to experience a car accident where I am injured or killed, I won’t. Therefore, even though someone else is being stupid, it doesn’t actually change anything except my mood.
Realizing this, I tried to apply it the next day. I found I was able to stay more calm during my commute. This state of mind stuck around for quite a while, but it does start to fade in time. Then I have to remind myself again of why those other people don’t matter. This isn’t always easy. There is always that doubt in the back of my mind that says, what if my soul wants to choose something horribly unpleasant like a car accident? See, I don’t trust my higher self to bring me the experiences I need to grow. I am so concerned with keeping things smoothly moving forward that I don’t trust myself to make this happen.
Isn’t it amazing that I can’t trust my own higher self, and instead try to micromanage everything myself? It’s insane really. And this causes me to get bogged down. It may be partly due to all these crazy energy shifts going on, but I still have to take responsibility for my own focus issues. I can be kind to myself and not beat myself up for these shortcomings lately, but I also need to do what I can to dig myself out.