I agree with you Jax that where I am now is the result of the sum of events already happened. I`ve never really thought that “this is where I want to be!”. But each step seemed in hindsight a logical one for the next. After leaving the religious world, I found someone who I knew during that time and helped me find a job in another part of the country. There I found a better paid job (remembering I had no training which would have helped me in the outside world), where I enjoyed promotion and got to know my wife. I became very unhappy with the very bussiness orientated attitude, but I had enough security to start a 3 year training as a nurse to help others. I never imagined doing this, but it just seemed to happen. Never have I doubted that I have been alone, and somehow I have always believed I would get there where I am supposed to be.